March 27, 2008

i was so nervous the night before.couldnt sleep well.first was kept awake by a terrible nightmare.i dreamt that bestie was taking the flight back to sg and it crashed midair.couldnt get back to sleep till 6 plus.aftwards slowly drifted back into a restless sleep.was jolted awake by a sudden thought that invaded my mind : the thought of logging onto rp's website and reading their dumb msg "sorry we couldnt get you into rp due to overwhelming response".tried to push it to the back of my mind but the sickening thought kept popping up in my head.couldnt take it anymore,logged in rp's website.and truth be told,i really didnt get into rp.heaved a loooong dejected sigh.i feel like sucha big failure.why couldnt i get into poly aft two yrs?i find myself real stupid.oh well,i just got to keep working harder and harder than ever.i must do well.nothing can get me down......but allow me to wallow in misery for a day will ya.back off pls.lotsa thanks

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