colour my life

everything kinda ended

true stories dont have happy endings

im someone who will run away once reality is not as ideal as fairytales

this time

i didnt run away

i heard so many bad stuff u said abt me

from so many ppl

and i cried a whole lot these few days

but i believed u when u said u didnt say it

perhaps im dowright stupid to people

but i can tell u im not

trust is the most important thing

even if u did said it

i couldnt care less anymore

secrets will still be secrets

i will not reveal who said this who told this to bla bla bla

even when everyone in the world didnt believe u

i do

though im the person "u" talked abt

before that phone call

i thought that im going to have an argument of so u think i believe u ?

but it didnt happen that way

now theres nothing i could except cry

have i been used to get back at her ?

or is she lying ?

i dont care

this is torture

purely torturing

and im glad i have so many people ard me

whom i know will never hurt me

i know she never thought of even hurting me

when i received this msg

cass if u really think that i said it then im sorry

im nt going to work anymore

i cnt face those who says all that abt me.

i really cant.

all along,i trust them

and i get shit for nothing

i maybe a bitch but i never let my friends down

they are the2nd most important thing i have

now i dont have any

last words

thanks for becoming my laughing gas

thanks for cheering me when im down

i appreciate it lots

bye

i just sat there crying for a long time

but i gained a lot from this

i helped some people realised things

i got to know some friends whom im not close to

sense that im upset

more than those whom i called close friends and they dont even care

i wanna thank n ______ c______ f________j_______y______n_____

and i got a surprise

someone left a cookie and a packet of tissue in my locker

and told me to stop crying cos he's very worried

tyvm (:

and someone who is always on the phone with me

and a big mr nice guy and trustworthy friend

always asking me

are u ok ?

tyvm to u too (:

and to that someone who always sms me to ask me

are u alright ? everything ok ?

tyvm to u three (:

and to joyce

who can sense im upset since day one

tyvm to u four

and to my bestie

who felt so bad she wasnt there for me and would call me tomorrow night

tyvm to u five six seven eight (:

but im wrking ):

but it's alright

i knew u wished u were here for me

and thats all i need