colour my life

watched stars for a cause just now
this 20 YO boy studies with the help of vounteers providing for his edu and only visits his grandparents once a month
his dad passed away

and his grandma took out this photo of her son
she darent show it to her grandson cos she didnt want him to know she misses her son truckloads and then she broke down
oh man , that's it . i turned into a crying machine yet again
on a random note , i watched the news and got to know a man got knocked down by a truck just behind my house and the man died from his injuries on the road
shoot , my place is gonna be haunted mannnnnnnnn
and it dawned on me that life is fragile
i could be blogging today but i may be gone tomorrow
who knows
and that prompted me to write this note titled if i were to die one day
i wanna leave some words for the ones i love instead of leaving them hanging
i wanna let them have some closure
no im not emoing i just want to prepare for the unknown
im scared to die because im fucking scared of pain and the unknown
but for now , i just wanna be happy

hahaha with wild curo
which was suppose to be a gift to my dad for father's day
it's my sleeping companion now

i reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy feel like vomiting now
and im still having diarrhoea . 6 times today